Quantum mechanics and classical physics have long been in search of a unifying theory of everything – hoping to discover the thread that ties the forces of the microscopic with the forces that govern the astronomic. String Theory is the predominant model being explored currently — and even though it hasn’t actually yielded any real evidence yet, it has offered up a fascinating field of scientific investigation. Makes me wonder what a unified theory of me would look like? What thread could I pull through all the disparate parts of me that always seems to get lost in the cognitive white noise of my own self-serving explanation of who I am?
On some level we all experience a fragmentation of identity – everything from our conflicted inner most person, keeping all the secrets of our unspoken words, to our contrived convivial small talking persona we offer to strangers . . . and every version of ourselves in between. But to be aware of yourself as splintered doesn’t mean you have a psychological disorder – it’s just an honest confession that our lives can be pulled in so many directions, we can begin to feel scattered and frayed . . . as if who we really are, is somehow being lost in translation.
Now this might not even be something that has ever hit your radar – because most people experience their lives so sped up, tracking at such a dizzying pace, that they seldom get a chance to take personal inventory or self-reflect . . . so they haven’t a clue just how absently present they come off to others. So often we ration out, and partition off, our availability – because we’ve convinced ourselves that there are only so many slices of us to go around. And this is just one of many ways our lives seem to get away from us . . . parceled out a piece at a time.
Intuitively we know there should be some kind of harmony, some measure of balance at work subduing the cacophony of life into a symphonic whole — a belief that arises from the notion that life has purpose, meaning, and a cohesive design. In other words, an ontological theory of everything – all things held together, not by some dispassionate force of nature, but rather as an elegant ballet, choreographed as an invitation to join in the dance . . . and we spend our whole lives learning to step in time with the whole of creation.
It is the confession of my faith that Jesus is the thread that pulls the whole thing together. He is the Alpha and Omega (Revelation 1:8). “He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of all creation. For by him all things were created, in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities—all things were created through him and for him. And he is before all things, and in him all things hold together.” ~ Colossians 1:15-17. So when Paul says “. . . to live is Christ” (Philippians 1:21) he’s actually declaring a profound ontological truth. So in the disarray and confusion of my life, it is Jesus who brings meaning and significance to my life – where chaos seeks to bind me, the preeminence of Christ is perpetually setting me free.
“. . . still there is a place in your heart for me.”